3 For I am conscious of my rebellion,
and my sin is always before me.
⁴ Against you—you alone—I have sinned
and done this evil in your sight.
So you are right when you pass sentence;
you are blameless when you judge. (Psalm 51:3-4 CSB)

I feel as though I spend a lot of my life in rebellion. Mostly against God but at times against life itself. I find this especially true as I get older. Not that I am being rambunctious like in my youth but that I chafe against what limitations life sets upon me.

I want to do more, be more and not accept the limitations of life at my age. No, I am not so old that I cannot do most of what I want. But I am old enough that I have to know my physical limitations. Too often I feel much like the song says, “not as good as I once was but good once as I ever was.”

This type of living just gets us hurt, physically or spiritually. We rebel against our bodies, against our circumstances and, yes, against God. We want things our way and we want them now!

Rebellion is a state of our sinful life. We kick against to goads and chafe under limits that are truly good for us. The limitations God sets are always in our best interest. But our sinfulness and pride gets in the way and we want to do what we want to do.

God is blameless when it is we who are stretching the limits. His judgement against us is true, as once we come to saving grace our sins are truly only against God.